i hate to get emotional but

I’m oh so ready to pack up my stuff. What little I have but you know its enough.  The endeavor is great.  It shall take determination, which happens to be in abundance right now. The oldest ending in the book forms this new beginning. Even though predictable its always worth grinning, because the truth is its time for this change. You can’t always have patience with what is right or you’ll often be up wondering late at night. wondering what? depends on who, because what is right may be different to you, than it is to me.  Actually this I gaurentee. We all must find whats personally right. Hopefully unselfishly to others delight, but my patience is thin in this place I live in. I hope everyone understands, well actually respects, the decision for which I speak of in this text. I feel as if my work here is done. The roots are in place and to continue to grow, I need a new pot with new soil you know. So together we venture my lady and me, or if you will these two grown up trees, hoping to find what is right, what is free. the perfect conditions for her and for me. I love you all and to all of my peers everyone of you is worth every one of my tears. As for my kin, don’t know how to begin. I thank you so much for accepting who I am and having faith I’d grow to be a good man. Mother my debt to you is unpayable, maybe some day that will change but for now I’d like you to know how I feel, I’ll be the first to say that its true that  I express my true feelings too little. My respect for you is beyond all words, all comprehension, and it gets on my nerves how little I’ve spent telling these things to you. I hope you understand & I sure that you do. Thank you so much for being such a great mother. If it wasn’t for you who knows where I’d be. The road at times has been bumpy & I haven’t always quite understood that everything you’ve taught me was  for the good. I now understand & I must confess that I know at times I caused you much stress. I know it was hard, your perseverance was great, you would have given an arm or really your life. thanks for not giving up on me mom I cannot repay you in all of my life.  Terry Sr. father, dad, old man. Things between us have been complicated at times, aside from that fact I still can’t deny that I’ll miss you as well, you have put me through hell, I’m better for it though as far as I can tell. We’ll be seperated by much land and different weather, but lets be honest we get along better when we don’t live together.. I promise we’ll talk & i’ll send lots of pictures. I’m not writing this to preach my lessons, but take care of yourself dad because its my confession that we still have alot of talking to do and when I visit I’m going to want to see you. Now on to Caty, who’s become quite a lady.  I’m constantly impressed with who you are as a person, so independent & ready to tackle lifes burdens. Your confidence is going to take you far in this life. Don’t let anyone stop you from doing your thing. Believe in yourself you could do anything. We’ve talked alot more in the last couple years, because we’ve had the same jobs & similar peers. Caty I ask you to promise me this, that we won’t become siblings that cease to exist. I’ll always want to talk to you & that goes for everyone else here too. Its important for me that we keep in touch, cuz too many people take family for granted too much. So Caty open your computer & have a look, you’ll find that I made an account for facebook (you better add me).. I love you all from the bottom of my heart. Keep that in mind as I make this fresh start.

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